I wish i could just fall asleep and dream of a new reality tonight

i wish i could i could show you guys the truth , but it wont happen tonight

i wish i could dive into uncharted waters, id sink to the bottom from the weight of stress on my should your giving me, till you tell the truth i will drown their tonight

i wish someone would walk in my shoes and see in my eyes from my standpoint tonight

i wish that maybe once someone would give a shit about me, i always put people first and now when i need the back up you guys all leave me. i found out where i stand tonight

if a piece of me could just die tonight, i let it be my heart becuase, as much as i give mine to everyone no one gives it back.

maybe im to nice or maybe i dont stand up as much as the rest but atleast i know from tonight that im just always not gonna be able to compare, i give up and tonight is tonight , and tommorow is the day afters yesterday but  in all the mits tonight is what started the pain.

You think your soo cool trying to lie to everyone. you think its perfectley fine and your world is just gonna be ok while mine burns and crashes, tonight i learned that i cant trust anyone, my bros left me, i only got 2 people now i can count on becuase they took the time to listen and read and see the holes in where you slipped up, i can prove you wrong becuase you fucked up and not me, tonight i had two people blam me and now some of the closest people to me, dont want anything to do with me, tonight i figured out that i need way out, i figured out that it doesnt matter how close or how bad you try to explain the truth no one will believe you and while you sit their with your head held high, i sit here and wonder what i ever did to you to make you do this to me, i know deep down i know the truth and it hurts to see, that the truth is not what people are seeing, they see through me into you and now im being pushed away..

losing the people close to you in the blink of an eye…. fuck this life and your lies.

You can love her without seeing her.

You can hear her voice next to you at night if you keep the speaker on on you phone,

she can love you by the things you say to her 

that make her feel like the only one

you can feel her in your mind , and touch her through your eyes

she can hold you in your sleep 

while cuddles with the bear you bought her

But you can never tell her i love you in person , nor kiss her to sleep at night .